So. I want to pursue a carrer. I want to know that I have job security and a retirement plan. I want to know that I can care for my daughter and keep her safe and well tended. I want to do something that I know will bring a good outcome. I talked to Sally, my old foster mom earlier tonight. She suggested Job Corp. I think it would be a good idea. I need to move on it fast though if I am going to do it. The age cut off for starting it is 24. So that leaves me very little time. They have nursing programs and they pay you to take them. They pay for your food and things like that and they also give you cash when you complete the program. Nursing I could handle. Based on my past jobs I think it would be a good thing for me. It would be a realistic job and then later in life I can take my art classes, maybe even take them while there. The big thing is finding the location where I can do the nursing program. So that is the plan. Just need to get things going. Just alot on my plate and a hard decision to make and I need to make it soon. Because the program I wnat is not in Ohio. They have food service jobs and carpenter jobs. I wont do those. Can't. So my hard choice is that if I do the job corp stuff I'd be leaving mom again. Gotta figure it out and make a decision that will be best for me in the long run. Goddess grant me the strength to choose the best path..


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I may look into a local college for it. Mom said that she knew someone who took courses and also was able to get grants so that she did not have to pay for it. I'm going to look into that because as long as I can get the courses and the degree and training needed to start working as a nurse and then work my way up to RN that would be in my best intrest. I just really want to make sure that I am able to support my daughter and myself without having to worry. Without wondering if we'll be able to survive day to day. Massage was a bust because my hands can't handle it any longer but this is something I can stick with and make into a full time carrer and one day retire with. That would be something that would make me happy. Plus should I move again and I know I will some day I can transfer my location alot easier. There is no concern on getting clients or anything like that. I just wish I had realized long ago that I would end up wanting to go in this direction. Would have saved me time and cash and I could be in the feild already. The only diffrence is many things would have been missed out on by not doing massage so I really don't mind that the Gods and Goddess's helped me along my path. I know that doors are opening and things are becoming clear. Possibilties are endless and things will work out the way that they need to. I know it. I can feel it in my bones and in my heart. This is the start of something amazing.

Thats all.